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Woah.
Some days I miss you so much it hurts. But I'm so thankful. I feel as if everyday that goes by is day I could have had with you. I could be seeing you grow, oh how much I miss that. It was one of the greatest joys, to see you experience new things, watch you fall down and get up again! I'll never see another face that lit up like yours, oh so easily excited. But you know what? I get to look up to you in a sense. Because you've made it Harrison, you've made it to the place I want to be. The place that my gaze is transfixed upon more and more every single day. What irony? Your older sister is looking up to you-- jealous for what you're able to experience, jealous for the wisdom and Love you've attained. I often wonder what you're doing I know I can't even come close.....I hate having this barrier of time and space between us- it strangles everything inside of me. I have so much to understand about God that you already know. I know you don't miss us and you are satisfied where you are. I hope you're awaiting our arrival though. I miss you.

Sister.

"Sister"
By: Dave Mathews

Passing time with you in mind
It’s another quiet night
Feel the ground against my back
CountING stars against the black

Think about another day
Wishing I was far away
Wherever I dreamed I was
You were there with me

(Chorus)
Sister, I hear you laugh
My heart fills full up
Keep me please
Sister, when you cry
I feel your tears
Running down my face
Sister, sister, keep me

I hope you always know it’s true
I would never make it through
You could make the sun go DARK
Just by walking away

Playing like we used to play
Like it would never go away
I feel you beating in my chest
I’d be dead without

(Chorus)
Sister, I hear you laugh
My heart fills full up
Keep me please
Sister, when you cry
I feel your tears
Running down my face
Sister, sister, you keep me


I hope you always know it’s true
I would never make it through
You could make the heavens fall
Just by walking away

(Chorus)
Sister, I hear you laugh
My heart fills full up
Keep me please
Sister, when you cry
I feel your tears
Running down my face
Sister, sister, you keep me




Woah. This song took me back, tears came streaming down my face and I realized....
I just haven't dealt with you yet. I will grab ahold of anything else before you absence catches up with me. I am reminded of it everyday-there's a lack of the treasures you possess. I can find myself looking for shreds of you in experiences I chase, people I try to get to know, and things I try absorb myself in.
Making so much noise, keeping the volume of my life so high that I don't have to see the wispers of the imprint you left. Even though I find myself looking for it everyday.
It's like you were cut right out of our family photo. We keep moving on, learning and seeing new things. I wish I could say your death has brought us closer together as a family. But it hasn't. Yet.
It's so hard to see your friends get older, and to think of you as a 14 year old boy--you're turning 15 this summer. You would have started drivers Ed with Dana this month and it would have been one of the best Summer's ever. I hate thinking that no matter how great an activity or experience is, everyone is thinking one thing. "If Harrison was here....we'd be having 10 times as much fun!". No matter how crazy or spontaneous something is everyone knows you could have added something bigger and better than we could think of.